all consuming

hi my lovelies! my apologies for the lack of posts here of late. but really, would you sit in front of your computer if you could be snuggling with this:



these cheeks are far more appealing than blogging right now, which i'm sure you can understand. they're actually more appealing than almost everything else at the moment and i keep finding myself overwhelmed with how much i adore this little pie, at how much i adore both my kids (weird huh? kids plural), at how much i am enjoying mamahood at the moment. even when she cries, even when i haven't had enough sleep (= all the time) and even when i really need to pee but i can't use the bathroom cos edie will starve to death if i don't feed her first.

so many people told me how different it feels with the second child but i never imagined it to be like this. i feel so relaxed with none of the anxiety i felt the first time and i just can't get over how much easier edie seems to be. sure she gets sore tummies, colic, cries when she's overtired, wakes 3+ times a night and does all those baby things that babies do but i don't know if it's the hormones, the fact edie doesn't have reflux (jay did, poor little dude), due to the fact that i had the birth i wanted, because i have a supportive loving partner this time around or all of these things combined but this time it just feels easy. and i'm so overwhelmingly in love with this little girl that all the hard stuff seems to just disappear when i look into those blue eyes and she smiles up at me.

'tis all consuming this is and i'm loving every minute.